Inner conflicts that still exist within us, which have not been thoroughly solved, will hamper our lives to be used by God to the fullest. We can recognize the characteristics of people who still have inner conflicts from the story of Moses.
When God called Moses and wanted to use him to be a deliverer for the Israelites, the Lord had to struggle with him until the Lord finally managed to persuade and convince him (Exodus 3-4). But there was still a flaw, because after struggling for so long, Moses still said, “No, Lord, please send someone else” (Ex. 4:13 TEV). So in the end, God gave Aaron to help Moses to be his spokesman to the Israelites, who later gave him trouble.
So we should recognize if we still have inner conflicts that have not been solved in us. Because an inner conflict that is not solved will surely be exposed on the outside, it’s just a matter of time.
These are the characteristics of people who still have inner conflicts within them:
1. Has many reasons to reject a given task.
When God sent Moses, he reasoned, “What if the Israelites do not believe that God has sent me, and asked about His name?” The Lord explained at length about His name that should be introduced to the people of Israel, and what to do and what will happen (Ex. 3:13-22). But Moses reasoned again, “What if they do not believe me and do not listen to my words?”
God equipped Moses with three miracles so that the Israelites trusted him and listened to his words (Ex. 4:1-9). But Moses reasoned again, “Ah, Lord, I am not eloquent.” God said that He who created human’s tongue will accompany and teach him what to say (Ex. 4:10-11). Finally Moses said, “I’m not worthy, send anyone more worthy” (Ex. 4:13).
2. Imprisoned in the “smallness of his ‘I am’” so he can not see the “I AM” of the great God.
During a conversation with God, Moses could not get out from the smallness of his “I am” because he was imprisoned there. Whatever God said and declared to him was like hitting a brick wall and can not be received well.
Similarly, a person who still has inner conflicts within him will not be able to listen, the Lord and we can talk about anything, but it’s like hitting a brick wall. He can not accept it, even if it is accompanied by evidences and real miracles.
The reason is that he is imprisoned in the ‘smallness of his ‘I am’” so he can not see the “I AM” of the great God. That’s why when Moses asked about His name, God revealed Himself as ‘I who I am” so Moses was swallowed in the “greatness of God’s ‘I am’” until he was freed from his prison of his small “I am.”
3. Always thinks and gets frightened about things that that do not necessarily happened.
When God wanted to use Moses, He was often hindered by various things that frightened him, which was actually just an invention of his own fear in his mind. He’s frightened, what if the Israelites do not believe in God who sent me and asked about His name.
But when God revealed His name, he’s frightened, what if the Israelites did not believe me? All that fears hindered him to fulfill a divine assignment from God.
A person who still has inner conflicts within him is a person who is afraid to fail, afraid that he can’t do it, afraid of what people say.
If these three of the characteristics of people who still have inner conflicts still exist in your life, then it’s a sign that you still have inner conflicts that must be solved. You must solve it immediately, instead of expose it.
Also read: What We Should do When God is Working.